I haven’t been in this position in quite some time now. But I certainly remember when I was and what it was like. So much goes into the preparation of this day. The day you get to meet your child for the first time. When something captures your heart like you never could have imagined. As the days go on, this same person makes your heart ache, then makes it swell again. It’s one of the bumpiest rollercoasters I have ever been on. Just when you think you start to gain some understanding in how to raise them, that feeling of confidence is pulled out from under you leaving you stunned and on a new quest to figure it out again. From what I gather, this is what the rest of my life will be like now that they exist. And while I don’t enjoy the feeling of slowly creeping to the top of a hill just to plummet down and feel like my stomach is in my throat, I wouldn’t trade it for anything. There is so much to learn from these experiences.
“Don’t fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.” Philippians 4:6-7